January 9, 2012 § Leave a comment
Two steps forward…
And one back to school. Here I am. Sitting in my walk-in closet sized room, on my twin bed. I feel like I’m dorming again. Which is something I thought I would have turned my back on forever, to be honest.
The Lord is good. I am rooming at a friends house for 10 weeks. Most school weeks are only 4 days, which means extra long weekends to spend with the hubs. Every Friday is something to get excited about, because it means going home to see the people I love. It’s funny, because I was so used to being in the clinic I forgot what school even meant, but now that I’m back, I can already feel myself adjusting, falling back into that familiar routine. And while I wouldn’t have chosen it, it honestly is kind of nice.
And here I am. I will say it again: The Lord is good.
You would think I’d know by now that everything will be okay. This is something I’ve been dreading for weeks. And yet, I’ve spent the last few hours catching up with friends and its been nice. A bright spot that I wasn’t expecting to my day. And that’s how it works. Just when I think things are looking dim, God sends me a bright spot.
Let all that I am wait quietly before God,
for my hope is in him.
He alone is my rock and my salvation,
my fortress where I will not be shaken.
My victory and honor come from God alone.
He is my refuge, a rock where no enemy can reach me.
O my people, trust in him at all times.
Pour out your heart to him,
for God is our refuge. – Psalm 62
God placed this passage in my heart on Sabbath. Once I read it, my worries became smaller. They did not dim completely, because the Devil still works on our hearts, and he definitely knows how to hit my weak spots. But I was able to look up this passage several times yesterday and today, and each time, it quiets my soul.
God is it. He is my refuge, my rock, my hope, and my salvation. Life is hard, but God is mighty. Whatever the future may hold, whatever my tomorrow brings, I know that my victory comes from God alone.